Catching up on a TEENAGE life!

Tonight, the lights flashed by on the streets; it had robbed partially of my vision. Considering that i already have such poor night vision capabilities, very similar to the aftermath of using a Mangekyou. What am i to do? Im suppose to hand over my resignation letter soon, that day will come swift. My last days at work. I've have been missing out badly, now trying desperately to recliam my long awaited teenager lifstyle. Yet, i may be once step too late. Started work straight after that dreadful exam. While the rest enjoyed their moments before college, i worked and lived a life having a taste of the future. Still trying not to think too much, the overload of data transmitting through brain nerves can prove disastrous especially to a TEENAGER who drinks kinda often. While the rest of the world prayed for world peace, i prayed that my beer-belly days never come. Its kinda disappointing to see what a narcissist i have become; yet its those online friends networks' to blame. Facebook, friendster. Clearly its breeding a world of narcissist, explains the rapid decline of the Economy as well as the rapid climb of our global temperature. Everyone's getting just too hot, and soon nature will have her way of cooling us down; and so we shall see..... ^^

Working title. to be continued...

My Love pockets...

Weirdly, im not getting that regretful feeling im suppose to when looking back into my bank account. The wonderful figures that threw millions of nasty shopping concepts on HOW IM GONNA SPEND IT ALL into my head now down to less than a quarter of its original amount. I have to confess though, its well spent money for a 17 year old. Went shopping with a few ungrateful pals of mine *hehe grins... (cause they left me at 4.30 FOUR FREAKING THIRTY!) And i had to spend the rest of my day alone. Spent a few hundred bucks on shirts, jeans, belt and wallet in Top Shop. Somehow the new years almost ready for me. Works getting really stressful, im not getting any younger. No more time for games and that un-necessary day dreaming like what normal teenagers do. I can't help but to see through my days with a sigh thinking of how far i've drifted away from innocence. I do miss alot of things; like what the hell, everyone does.

PS; I wana go paintball!

Hated You My Lover

Since that moment on
the times and love all seems wrong
running around while our hearts still beating on
I fell with just one call,
Is it you or my world but its just too small,
Playing the cards and my hearts far from warm,

Oh baby, why are we still playing lost and found,
Turning about that merry- go- round
All those words that never seem to reason,
The pieces of the puzzles far from completion.
Love me tender through constellation,
Now those promises seems so random ~oh,

Cant you see that im just pretending
that whatever between us is never ending
So long, our plays still going on,
what was it thats keeping us on?
I hated you my lover
So stop savoring our moments together...
Realize this and that we're really over.
Cause i hated you oh my lover

My contemplation as blind as ever,
Was always one chasing the other,
It would never end or move on any further,
Love frozen in the ice,
Let me wipe those tears off your eyes,
along with the pieces filled with I …

Its always you taking my blames,
I lost my self deep within that shame.
Im not calling for your name,
cause i just can't bear to see you cry again,
Hidden beneath that smile of yours with pain..
This is my love for you, the man standing before you
Now move on and never look back...

The star blinker

I found resonance in my head's radio. Creepy noises shoved me to believe in the boogie man that haunts the underneath of my bed. The nights and days now passing like frames that plays a thousand to a second in a movie; almost unknowingly, yet memorable. The tides have turned, im being pressured greatly about my studies. One topic now in which i have phobia to talk about, i would usually seek avoidance. I can't remember exactly when was the last time i sighed looking up to the dark blue skies. Which reminds me, i saw a rainbow the other day; it rained that day. Past two days ago, my heart beat faster and slower at the same time. The warm sensation like waves going through my body, up to my head. Thoughts went wild and a certain stiffness somewhere. Eyes that killed and melted my heart. Oh why... cant it be any simpler?

A new new new new YEAR!

At the blink of an eye, another year passed. I saw the smiles and laughter, the tears of joy or those filled with sadness, now nothing but hilarious moments back in time. Brings back memories when you just look back at them. Yup, im a year older now, a level higher. Looking back down to the past from high above, now all that i see seems so childish and ignorant. Its a good sign i suppose, a change for the better. The world will never seize to spin, the society will never seize to grow, humans will forever be the same. Even though time may move on; it may just be the same. However i had a rather amazing day today. Happy New Year EVERYONE!