What's it like?

Im confused. Like water mixed with coke. The feelings gassy yet diluted. You can feel the bubbles burning your tongue yet it feels cool and wet at the same time. I've never done this kinda thing before, but is it right? Maybe things should have stayed unstated in the first place. I can't possibly describe this feeling, words failed me for the first time in my life yesterday. There is this overwhelming selfishness but somehow i know Im sober enough to know that. What is right? I know the answer but Im refusing to admit....And i really wonder what's it like if i really....nah nevermind....

PS

I seriously don't know

Late late night

My eyes are watering, its late now. 3:24 am in the morning, got an early day tomorrow yet im watching some dvd "all about TVXQ". Have to admit, really cute though. Oh ya, what was it that i wanted to write about again? Gosh, i can't remember. Well come to think of it,  i can't seem to remember things well lately. Why? I wish i knew. Im neither depressed nor sad. 

Really had fun today, went around the neighborhood under the bright afternoon sun after meeting. Speaking of which, i found some really awesome plot for the upcoming videos. 3 in total. Can't wait to shoot them. Oh ya, was speaking of walking around my neighborhood under the bright afternoon sun. Relived some moments, lifeless yet awesome lol.

I have a dance workshop tomorrow. Though im abit worried. Been a while since i last danced after that back injury. Although im back into dancing, i don't feel as active as last time. Its like i've started dancing all over again, from scratch. Hmm, somehow i feel rather pressured. Its like i lost my confidence every bit of it. ...

A city that never sleeps

I opened my eyes and as it slowly adjusted to the pure darkness, i could hear the steady ticking of the clock laying somewhere around me. The atmosphere felt still, in a room with no windows or doors nor even the slightest crack or gap on the wall that could have lighten up the room even just a little, granting hints to perhaps maybe a reason as to why i'm in a room filled with nothing but darkness; fear was closing in on me.

I tried to recall, though shutting my eyelids made no difference at this point; i wasn't sure whether they were shut or opened. Nothing came to my mind, it was blank though accompanied by slight pricking pain that felt like needles tickling at the back of my skull. 

*inspiration lost, to be continued......

Colorblind

Staring blankly at the screen hoping someone would P.M me wasn't what i was doing today, instead i was staring straight into space. The cooling atmosphere supposingly  from the weather these days re-assured me that i was still alive; still being able to feel that cooling breeze brushing across my face as lightning and thunder struck above. I have to face it, i was being emo, and still am. Almost all those that i talked to today, were all having issues of their own. My resentment encouraged my already emo mood even more; darkening. Taking a sip of my already cooled tea, i thought to myself; "what do i want?"  

Like the movement of waves, my feelings and confidence are always facing their ups and downs. I wana walk under the bright morning sun; traveling around my neighborhood and maybe i can find answers to the questions i don't even know. Finding myself lost at sea, not even certain of my own existence is the worst feeling ever. Im lost, but am I really lost? Cause, Im not even sure if i myself exist; if i don't exist, i cant be lost cause there won't be me to get lost.

1. Do you wish to get married?
Nope
2. What is your favourite animal?
Bird?
3. Who is the person you trust the most?
Myself
4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
No, its not stable
5. If you have a dream to come true, what would it be?
The world to end
6. Are you satisfied with yourself?
Not really
7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Lose? I have nothing to lose
8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Nope, nothings permanent 
9. Have you broken someone's heart that he tried to commit suicide?
I don't think anyone would be that stupid to die for me XD
10. What do you like about yourself?
My thoughts
11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
Understanding and mature
12. What feeling do you hate the most?
i try not to have feelings
13. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
Yes but some are force to be broken
14. Do you treasure your family?
Yes
15. What do you dislike the most?
People
16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
I dont need it
17. What do you regret most in life?
being alive
18. What kind of friends do you hope to be in your friend's eye?
Someone whose there but not there. There when u need them.
19. what's your favourite food?
Loads
20. Which date you like the most?
365.25 days a year, they are all the same.

I don't know

Was i disturbing, 

or was i being too stupid?

I still don't get it,

Why can't you just tell me why?

Things feel opposite;

Or maybe its just me,

What is going on? 

Was it things thats different

Or was it i?

I don't know;

I don't know,

Many times i just tried to get close,

but always ended up further,

And stranded with more whys.

Must i really say something?

Or should i just keep quiet? 

I seriously don't know. 

Im tired of sucking up,

Should i start standing up?

Im full of myself?

Ya i fooled myself, 

The truth is, 

I don't even have half myself.

I don't know,

I don't know.

I guess, one can never stay

For ones who left.

i seriously, seriously

don't know.....

A] People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B] Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Here are my answers:
#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be ?
Its not really betrayed, just that its over. 

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be ?

I don't really have anything that i want;

#3. What will your dream wedding be like ?
wedding? hmmph, im not planning to get married.

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you ?
Not really, life can be quite simple if u can just break it down.

#5. What's your ideal lover like ?
Ideal lover? Seems impossible to find one for me.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone ?
i think its about the same, loving someone is painful, so is being loved.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love ?
Wait? loving someone doesnt mean you have to get them i guess thats how long.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do ?
I cant do much, cause loving sumone doesnt mean you have to get them, all u want is for 

that person to be happy. thats all.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days ?
Haha, funny question, if theres happiness theres surely unhappiness. Theres always a 

balance in things.

#10. What do you want most in life ?
What i want? Someone true?

#11. Is being tagged fun ?
i don't know. Maybe

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time ?
Travelling here and there, entertaining people.

#13. Who is the current most important person to you ?
no-one.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is ?
Great

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor ?
Single

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ?
a bird; free in the sky with no worries.

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do ?
Live a life;

#18. What kind of person do u think u are ?
crazy

#19. What do you define as a bad day ?
Evryday can be a bad day, depends on how u look at it. tats all

#20. If you have to choose between love (as in boy-girl relationships) and friendship, what would it be ?
Friendship