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A Thousand Roses;
The colors the red sky fill,
Many hearts a broken song,
A rhyme long forgotten...
scents of the summer,
descends to days of a winter,
buds of may,
flowers and wine in dismay;
or such just a stage play?

A few hundred miles...

The dreams ended,
The skies faded,
But my love embedded.

The times when your sad,
the days when your mad,
what if i say there's always someone there,
a few hundred miles hoping to share?

So long our fates have turned,
That beating thing will never learn,
The cotton candies, coke and tea,
A few hundred miles away here a silly me.

Someday the dream will end,
but just hope the gods will let me sing till then...

Song For You

Dreaming...
of a chance to get closer to you,
Not sure...
If it was night or day without you.
Ticking,
that chocolate ice-cream melts away.

A moment left beyond the steps,
Can i cry without tears?
The keys remained black and white,
Why does it end sheared?

I play this song for you,
I sing this song for you,
Oh can you hear me?
The melodies calling out to you...

The petals still remained on the floor
Now soaked in my tears,
Our promises i kept poor...
Will i ever see or could i ask for more...

Now i sing this song for you,
Can you tell my love is true?
The times and things i did to you,
how i wish it wasn't true...
And now i lay silent in the rain,
drops shattering on my pain..
the darkness took me away
and the times just wont come again....

The soups turned cold,
yet my heart still warm;
Days without you
My Love for you will never fold....

Fates that intertwine...

"Sweet encumbrance chained in strings of memories;
desperately moving up and further beyond the steps of destiny.
The hours played the days and the skies drift from day to night,
stars shone from high and low; in a world that never sleeps.
In the beginnings of time,
pen in books of fate; the lives and just of many abide.
Cold wind whispers the songs of the night, singing of the wonders in darkness.
Those insignificant fools play silly from above,
yet love or pain that comes.
Aloft in pavements of primes, followed by weariness in the days of age.
Will that happiness last never ending?
Or beyond the stretch of sky, way beyond the depths of the sea.
When one is destined to find its pair; the game begins...
The gods may throw the dice, play the odds and their little games;
yet the lost is ours to bear...

'O' fates that intertwine,
made and forged upon a glass of wine;
In the universe bathed in stars,
Will the water flow give way;
or yet its just another game made by fools?
'O' fates that intertwine... "

A Sunday of Struggles;

Whether or not torn between oneself or the other; things just never seem ending. Heaven's been crying these past few days, and now finally the sun. As i wait impatiently for food, hunger headaches hit me hard on my head. What was it that i was searching for; all seems so unclear all of a sudden. I just can't remember them all. The weather felt rather cool today; yet maybe because i was in my room the whole day unaware. Mums not feeling all so well, definitely struggling. Walking on with not sense of direction or rather not knowing where im suppose to go. I need some distraction, looking for a big big tree in the green green plains, to lay beneath until the sun rests.

"In this sweet madness,
the song keeps on twisting;
Faraway in distant lands,
hours lay still unattended;
Come out 'o' night,
leave the light behind;
Bring forth the days and sing
The stars and all that blings.
Come out'o' night,
swallow the skies deep
leave the day behind;
and bring forth the valiant..."

Some cool pics....

Depressed in content

That heavy feeling of my heart weighing like a hundred tons, that feeling itself accompanied my day. Being look down upon, somehow i didn't know it would hurt, not that much at least. Through laughter and eyes hidden behind their teeth, yet all i did was acknowledge them with a smile and quiet i went till my day was over. The day seem merciless, sun kept its gaze upon me; burning me with its heat. I've never felt so down before, i don't hate them, instead its me myself i hate. The world was on- top of me today, even heavens. I thought my past made me hollow, but then again maybe its a good thing that i found yet some feelings inside of me. Don't know why, but my feelings of school being unnecessary grew somewhat stronger over the recent days; especially today. School may just be the polite word to describe whats inside of it; all so unnecessary. Well, it looks like my stupidity for once killed me; and look where i am now, desperately seeking you again. Saying, i need you.....chang

STARBUCKS!!!!

Life on the double lines;

Days coming to a bitter end, i lived my day with a grumpy grin. My heart cramped at the thought of him; nevertheless darkening my whimsical mood even more. The flowers that bloom not too early but never too late, or such at the right time. To others, its destiny; but to a tree that blooms, its time. Staring at the clear night sky, in the corner of your sight, a lamp post shone brightly, lighting the road; serving its purpose. Oh how i missed those days in which colors never seemed to fade. 

That floating feel of boring adventures; yep those were the days. It has been awhile since i last lifted my head to the sky, dreams of cotton candy, or sparkling stones; i don't do that anymore.....

Tea.

"Tea leaves scatter the bottom of a cup,

While the cap preserves the aroma of the tea;

Its wonders made mysterious of its pot,

a custom with deep history,

Or such which many failed to see.

Afterall, its just a simple tea,

and an interesting pot....."

Dreams Woke Me Up.

Those dreams woke me up. Thought i could have another early night and that finally just maybe my uneven sleeping time could finally be corrected. But then again, i had never thought for the dreams to be this strong. I was tossing myself around, underneath the blankets, it was then i decided it was enough. My minds drifting away too much, hoping and craving for things that did not matter. Now slowly sipping my cup of tea, my nerves are finally beginning to relax. Another day went by wasted, something is bothering me; and its affecting me slowly, bit by bit. What if i were someone else? 

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Was it the unfrequent sleeping time or was it something else? My backs aching again; old scars. I forgot how many times i've searched the kitchen for something to bite yet im still in hunger. Been having weird weird dreams lately, maybe its a sign of something. Flowers that bloom late and scatter in the face of fall; im depressed.  These dreams involved someone, and it always leaves me in that dark corner every-time; yearning to see that someone again. When i looked, i can never see his face clearly. Thats depressing somehow, yet i know he may only just exist in my dreams. That comforting feeling, that i'll never be alone; i would do anything to feel that again, even for a moment. Friends, seemed unnecessary again. Alot of things comes to your mind eventually, especially when one's depressed. My days in the house kept me from the outside world, maybe its about time i take a walk outside. Breathe that cold morning air, bathe under that warm gaze of heaven. If you're ever coming into my life, just don't take too long.....  

Light Lights up Light,

Went un-inspired for a few days, finally be able to pen something down. The feelings great, like a thousand year old wine; the taste and aura generated upon its opening once again. I love the sunrise, seems like every things new again. Look forward to tomorrow for it is a mystery, and today is a gift which is why its called present. Jazz, playing yet again filling this now empty space with its jazzy colors; so soft yet sticky. Wonder what i was doing for the past few days, those days without anything at all in my thick thick skull. Cup of tea, by the window watching the rain fall. Yet, im at in-ability to write something yet again; alas this may just be the shortest post ever....