The Greenie Monster!

Funny, we're all under food crisis. The tsunami of hunger. What saddens me is not what's happening around the world but in-fact; the ignorance of people. when the the food crisis rhapsody appeared on the newspaper i went around telling people about, in hopes of exchanging our views on this matter but what came back from them was actually, "SO?" I was like WHAT THE!? Don't You people have any sense of compassion? Atleast for the WORLD you are living pathetically in! I mean come on, we're all living on the same piece of land, a land thats divided all around a sphere of water!

Why divide yourselves even more by secluding yourselves to your on perspective self! This is why our whole is in desperate need of IMMEDIATE JUDGEMENT. Or rather End it SOON! 

The more i see the more dis-hearted i feel. The things happening around the world, i know its not up to me to speak upon anything but still; even if i were to speak who will be willing to even spare an ear, who will be self-less enough to consider the little petition of a nobody, someone so small to an almost invisible point. I rest my case. 

Well still im proud to say that im one of the ACTIVE and DEDICATED members of the SAVE- ENVIRONMENT team or what i would to call personally the PLANET HEROES! mwahaha.. Makes me a greenie,  STILL! Its the new upcoming TREND! Mark my words man! Whats in will be GREEN!

HAPPY EARTH DAY!!!!!! WHOOooOOO!!

Bdae 2008!

My pre-birthday!

Had an amazing day today. Did an outing with a few of my frens in sunway. Though its a really simple one, but wow turns out that its the best one so far. Never had that much fun before. For my part i spent only $20 today, both of my frens gave me a budget of $10 each because they didnt buy me any presents lol. Though it wasnt much but i felt really really happy!

Went around sunway, talking as we went. Exchanging our point of views in life. Was really interesting. I realize something, things doesn't have to be complicated or whatever to be perfect. Today was this very day, simple yet perfect.. .. ..

An ironic tale of love.

Love died hanging on a dying tree. The branches supported the dying heart, drinking from its fluid that the tree began to live again. Like a miracle that fell from the sky once a millennium. Its bark that was of a grayish white started to hissed and whisper as it faded; contrasting it was the bright color of brown. It was coming to life.....

Suteki Da Ne?

Living in a world ever passing so harshly yet unknowingly, time and time again; breathing the same air everyday; living our lives under the same sky. The night yet ever so silent, embracing the winds that brush coldly on our window panes. Times and places share a same bond that captures our memories. Whether memories of happiness or sadness, through good or bad, with friends or solitude; they will always be there. Time and time again, present will fade into memories.

How can we preserve the elements we used to look back in our book of memories. Make it last, live not just in memories but in the present too. Nothing last forever, eternity is a lie. But, at least we tried to enjoy every last moment of it. Are these effort not enough to bring back the good old times. The laughter we used to share? The tears we used to shed? I had always imagine myself in a world of nothing but pure imagination, a place of dreams. Where friendships really meant well. Things that do last, and choices that determines how it will be. A world where fate is entirely in our hands. You choose to be what you want to be. Of course, you will have to work for it; still through this times, these experiences, it will be the memories we may one day look back TOGETHER and share the same laughter.; and continue making them.

Playing RPGs like Final Fantasy has always been my main reason and energy as to why friends are part of my flame. The characters in the story share a bond so strong that it is in-fact touching. I finally realized the reason behind Final Fantasy's fame; apart from all the vast game-play and world designs, its the story-line that captures us; whether or not, consciously or subconsciously. The times they shared throughout the story-line, the bond the had; truly truly amazing. No wonder its a fantasy; cause true lasting friendships like this is nothing more than just a fantasy. Its existence is present only in dreams.

Friends, Suteki Da Ne?

Safe in a Crazy World. .

What is going on with the world recently? Things certainly are going way off point. Lines of the intimidated. What more can i give? Everyones just moving and behaving like devils nowadays, where has our morales gone to? HAve we exchanged the hearts of pure with hearts of the great deep?

Have we no shame? Yet things are still continue-ing. Its like we're taking the long detour towards honor. Well through shame that is. After edison chen's incident. Lotsa weird weird stuffs starting to happen. WHY LAH! Don't know why, been feeling so much anger recently. Its like its about to explode any moment. Or worst its leaking, and revolving around me, taking form of my other self. My darker unknown self. IM just so paranoid of tall the things around me. Skpped school today for that reason and mainly because i wasnt feeling well. I mean who would when you have to faced FUCKED up ppl everyday. And hear their god forsaken voices.

im trying so hard to get a good look on how things are going to be and going on. BUt its seems that sometimes there are stuff in which it is impossible grasped. Things which are inevitable. I just feel so UGH!! lately. Wana kill everyone around me. ARGH! What am i doing lah? so... weird im acting so weird.

Anyways, just though of this new character for my story. Hmm a very cool guy, doesn't talk much. Has a younger brother following him everywhere he goes. They are orphans apparently. They are the survivors of a very sad past. His younger brother is usually blindfolded while his other brother does all the killing, as he doesn't his brother to see the blood of his enemies or something. ITs still a very draft idea. will finalize him soon. very soon.

Met up with kenn the other day. Hmm, gee his quite cute actually. I don't know. Maybe things are finally starting to change? who knows god knows...

Valentines with bottled up Feelings.

February 14th; a day celebrated and loved by all. A day to share love among friends. But somehow today seem like a day of bottled up feelings, feelings that were kept bottled up since way back. Speaking of which its been 2 days since Lam went to aust. Really weird not seeing him around in school; seeing him disturbing gals during recess. Ahh, been two days yet still theres no news.

Whenever i walk past his class, i was so hoping to hear his voice; his laughter and all. Its just so weird to have that feeling. To have someone leave. Though i don't really know him well; still his a good friend, a very good one indeed. Saying goodbye really is the hardest word. I would never forget that day, the day of many partings; February 12th. Dramatic it was in the airport. Went round the airport doing crazy stuff; cam whoring here and there. After we said our final goodbyes. exchanged hugs and there he went, down the escalator and we were chasing him from above. Running and running as he walked into the custom. Was actually holding my tears then, really wanted to cry but i can't afford to let him see my tears. It wasn't because its embarrassing, but because if he were to see, then saying goodbye would be even harder for him and maybe for us. Well. Sarah cried apparently, cant blame her though, as everyone was already on the verge of crying too.

After that day; it was back to school all over again. Things seemed normal at least. Except of course; Lam. Its amazing and sometimes saddening as to how things progresses in life. Things tend to change so sudden and dramatically. Sometimes its sickening.

Today in class, i felt really annoyed, pissed and angry. Mainly at myself or at someone. I can't believe i've been so stupid. There are times when you tired so hard and give so much to a person but in return they don't even at least PRETEND that they appreciate. They made it as if its what you should be doing. Sometimes you just try so hard to be a friend, in the end your just a trend. Something of no importance; that will change and disappear through time. Its just so DISGUSTING and IRRITATING to be in such situations. You just feel like destroying everything; "COME LETS BLOW HIM UP!" such seductive lines floating gently in my mind.

Why lah, do people have BIG EGO-es <------ ITs just so sickening. Typical teenagers; trying so hard to be cool. They think they ARE cool; they think they ARE everything. So FULL of themselves SO naive. Why, can't i just find a life time bud? DAMN!

Happy valentines everyone! Well today really is a valentine full of bottled up feelings. Will update soon with pictures of our airport expedition!

Here comes pressure all over.

Sometimes you just get all emo and feel like slitting your throat or your wrist, with all that amount of blood rushing out through your cut like tap water; maybe just maybe it could help. Schools starting, new year's holiday is up. Its now time to WORK WORK WORK. Aww never liked schools to begin with; considering the different different varieties of people ou have to face everyday. There are times where you just feel like locking yourself in your room; with your radio turned on LOUD! And possibly just stare into space, or what they call emo the whole bloody day.

Free-will's a powerful thing or maybe just too powerful? Decisions sometimes drives people nuts! But still what really drives people through the wall aint all this, but PEOPLE themselves!! The horror the pressure the sickness of it; sometimes you just get so tired. I don't know why, somehow i just don't feel like going back to school, especially now. I don't know why? Or maybe i DO know. I had thought this year to be a great year, or rather expected it to be. But noooooooooo; the tides are turning. I cant help but to carry some sort of a "OMG! SOMETHINGS GONNAA HAPPEN!" kinda feeling inside of me; turning everything upside down. Maybe im just being sensitive? But i thought it was human's nature to be sensitive?

Im happy, im not happy and im happy AGAIN and then not!! Blah blah blah, it goes on and on. OR maybe im just a coward; facing yet fearing. Fear is good; it causes you to tremble the warriors tremble. But why? Can i not have emotions? at least for a day? Just a day?

Im lost; really lost. There maybe just too many things for me to think about; to do; to settle. just so many.......

A day in CARREFOUR!

Spent a day in carrefour earlier today, with wai lam of course. MWahaha crazy crazy day. Suffice to say im now at his hse, and its around 12.33am in the morning, and if im able to blog at this time then surely i have a computer right in front of me right? lol i know i know, the last time i check i havent yet got my comp so TA DA here i am, spending the night over with wai lam.

The day was spent drifting torlleys down in carrefour, qhich of course attracted many queer eyes. Crazy running about trying to cath each other was rather fun, at least it made me felt young ONCE AGAIN!! MWahahaha i mean really really young lol.

HAiz, just so weird that after all this; there wont be any of that anymore. His going away. As mention on my earlier post, his the one friend thats going off to australlia for good. MAn, goodbye really is the hardest and saddest word. Cant there be a hello thereafter again?

Imagine, you're talking with someone today and hang out and it was really really fun, a few days later. HIs not there anymore. I know its not as if his dead but im sure gona miss his prersence. Well im preparing something for his farewell. SOmething memorable. that he can see eveyrtime when he misses the memories he had here. MOre to say a recollection of everything, well maybe not EVERYTHING; but everything to what i have.

Well, today i really really really felt what it was like being in his family. HAha, or what it was like being him. Man, the emptiness is catching up upon me. There will always be a time when we have to part. ITs the Day of many partings, once again. Firends come and go as they say, but no way. Go or not, he will always remain a wonderful bro to me. Love ya mate! GO BECOME AND AUSSIE BUT DONT GET STING BY A STINGRAY JUST LIKE STEVEN IRWIN! Mwahahahahahahahah i knnow.. aww man seriously gonna miss him man. Well i hope there will come a time for partings and many many many many reunions!

ALl the best to you mate! AYE AYE!

Untitled.

Aww man, im getting a flu. Lalala. My sexy flu voice is calling to me. Mwahahaha. I sound sexy when i get flu. especially when i sing. Nah nothing but mere words of flattery trying just to cheer myself up. There are more things to give attention to then myself these days or rather. Busy are the days of seniorism. MOre and more work of pressure but especially ones that never comes with joy.

What wonders there maybe that fills this place, silent is the ticking of time. I cant see whats footing around path astray. MAny happenings of late that confuse and never abides. Ones that go seemingly out of control in many ways than one; in ways that one may never know of.

The world cracks with excitement, songs of no reason. Sung by fools of the night. Crazy are times these days. Never ending errands that tire the soles of travellers on the path that never ends. ...

Smile!

Wow, some crazy ass year 2008 is. Incredible the is way of life this year, seemingly wonderfully hectic. Just a mere fraction of the total amount of homework is already enough to make you go crazy and stress all day.

Well, no matter how stressful in times or situation, try very hard to smile. It works everytime. Take a deep deep breath and release very very slowly. Imagine all inpurities and anger or whatsoever flowing slowly out of you. Well if it still doesnt work you could try KILLING someone. LOL

Good Byes the hardest word.

Just learnt that a good friend of mine is leavin. Ya i know sad sad news. Turns out that his leaving for Australia on th 15th of Feb. Haiz. gonna seriously miss him man. ITs just hard ya know, all this while, so used to seeing him n hearing his voice, imagine after the 15th, there wont be any of that anymore.

I dont know why but maybe recently i've been so stressed over meetings and plus i just learned the news yesterday, i literally broke down and cried. Really gonna miss him man.

Good Byes really the hardest word. Will update more soon .

(P.S i just hate saying goodbye.)

Pressure Pressure.

ITs only the first official week since school started, yet pressure's already catching up on me. Its over my head, pressing hard. Work work work, so much to do especially when i have to finish up the "50 karangan" that i owe. Serious business man. MAn.. and trees too. big events are coming up. meetings and more meetings would be the case plus more and more plannings. Lalala what a way to go, but come to think of it, its actually kinda fun considering the fact that whatever thats happening here revolves around my interest field, well except the karangan part lol. I mean who would actually seriously consider copying karangans as their interest?

Well, other than work, it all comes down to coming of age pressure. Lala im not sure about alot of things, ever so suddenly perhaps, maybe im losing my mind? Life is like a roller coaster ride. Up and down sometimes even through loops. Explains our teenage raging hormones causing u to have weird weird fantasies. *tell me bout it.

Life as a senior.

Life as a senior and the fact that its the last year in school would be somewhat different than the previous years. More pressure or maturity? More freedom or fun?
Hard to say hard to say.

Life is definitely getting real hectic this year. Especially when its SPM this year. The war of the students will come. "The shroud of the darkside has just fallen, began the student wars has." There will come a day where hope seems lost, heros will fall. And yet it will also be the time where many will find courage to face their darkest fears; SPM.

Time to seek new ways and new counsel is at hand. Work forth against the pressing time, return not the old ways but come anew. Great perils lies ahead.. . .will update soon..

been a while.

Its been a while. Nothings change; 2007 finally wrapping up to make way for 2008! Ahh the horror. Come to think of it, its spm next year. Wonder if i will be able to pass expecially when my BM sucks to a certain degree of mere beyond possibilites. Imma goner! Give me hearties mates! Aww man just wanna go through next year QUICK QUICK QUICK! and get high school over with!

College college! Seems like the awaitin paradise of nuthing but freedom and perhaps temptations! I foresee a flying here n there shawn in the coming years. Never stationary in one place or another. Always bouncin around like usual "Huu Huuu HUUU! Its Tiggger BOUNCIN TIME!" Bouncy bouncy bouncy bouncy bouncy!



Time bounded in time,
Sphere of rusted dime,
the days speaks haste,
from phase to phase.

Cherry blossoms in the coming spring,
or was it autumn that took its beauty.
of laughter and regrets,
pollution and corruption,
Left with emptiness and the chills of the wind,
Filling up the voids long exist.

Upon the changes of season,
creeping in the color crimson..
Come the end of days,
to face our last phase. . .

Hear the sound of the hints,
Where nothing seems to mean,
to a place where nuthing seems.
a world that never was. .

Ring Out The Bells!

Troubles troubles,
on the doubles,

Haste in the spring,
gone like a print,

Hourglass of days,
cast aside like hays;

Promised ways,
or mere play?

Change is at hand,
but reluctant I am;

Right or wrong?
yet its just a song,

Was it time of days,
or days that timed?

Things feel so blocked,
Like birds that flew in flocks.

Take time to rest?
or to confess?

Was it not feelings,
that took the prime prince?

Cursed the days may be,
blinded my eyes may be,

Give up will not,
or be tying the knot.

CHRISTMAS IS NEAR!!

The Creator ( NEW PROJECT!)

Some might find this drawing very Final fantasy well.. ya your right i got the inspiration from final fantasy. haha anways.. still works for me! HA!

Allright guys, this is my new project that i have been working on. Im sort of trying to maintain the concept of the original project "Forbidden Element" while bringin it to a whole new level. I dont know how to describe but this is the draft summary of it. ENJOY!


.:: The Creator ::.

Tore is one troubled teen in his sixteens,facing lives obstacle while trying to cope with his solitude. Tore may seem like any other teenager but there is more than ordinary behind that dark messy hair of his. Times are usually spent reading and writing about worlds he imagined and stories that flutters with fantasy. One day, he found an old note book while on his way home from school. Pitying the old notebook, he decided to bring it home. After all, the notebook was unusually well to his liking. As usual he started drafting on another story set in a world called Craetia. It wasn't long before he began writing it in the old notebook he found.

Things became very queer one particular afternoon where he met a car accident while heading home from school. Apparently he was rushing home to finish the last few pages of his story. There were flashes of light and soon things started to blur until there was nothing but darkness...

Tore soon find himself waking up underneath a great shady tree.Miles and miles of grassland surrounded him, his eyes raced across the green land until finally a huge metropolis came slowly into view. HE was in a place he had never been, it wasn't long before Tore realized the familiarity behind this strange place. For what he saw was more than just any grassland or city, but a world he created, a world by the name of Craetia.

"How did he end up in this place?" "Is this real or was everything about his life before he woke up in this place a dream?" Tore now search desperately for answers, exploring a new world or possibly a new life. He will soon discover that he possesses
a very powerful element or what would be later known as the Forbidden Element and that he must learn to control it and learn to be who he was, a Creator.

Our story is set in a world filed with fantasy, friendship, courage and love.

" A boy seeks desperately for answers, but he will soon realize
That he is actually lost withing himself."

Just got off..

Just got off a conversation with Shawn . Obviously he called, seriously i do not know what is the purpose behind that call. Because he seem to be crapping bout himself more rather than chatting with me. All bout how EXPOSED he was after having to contact with the working world and stuff and that my brain had its probs tonight. How unexposed i was and YADA YADA YADA. I think we ALL GET the picture dont we?

Its 5 plus and im still up. Well for "normal" poeple, they get up usually around this time. the only difference being, i stayed up while they got up. C-U-T-E! Aww man im so so so so hungry right now, i feel like i could swallow a cow whole. Went out "yum sui" with kev, sim n mandy. just now. ( i think i ACCIDENTALLY consumed caffeine ; or i wouldn't be in this hyped up pathetic don't know what else to crap state.)

Apologies my fellow blog readers for my infrequent updates. Though i am trying very hard to blog every so and then. You know me, my blogs and posts aren't usually bout what happen to me or what i did everyday. but more to the philosophical stuff. Stuff to do with what i think rather than what i do. So for that would seriously need inspiration and and time to make it happen. Yup you've guessed it, bottom line, NO FREQUENT updates from here on. really Sorry but the thing is i don't have a comp at home,( ya i know the shame.... ARGH!)But i do guarantee a SUPER DUPER long post whenever i get the chance to blog. At least to make up for my soon to be infrequent update habit.

Wow i have to say. Its December already. Such haste in the passings of time,So many moments filled with no matter anger, sadness or joy are now slowly flowing away down in the river of time. Things are certainly different now, as it may seem. But i cant help but to feel that i am like a stone in the river of time, ever so reluctant to move along with the currents.

I would be expecting next year with a few major changes. Things arent really going especially when your monkeying around. peoples change ya that certainly the truth, i accept that but why change to be an annoying person rather than a better person? I just wanna enter next year as someone whose hardly noticeable. Be able to slip through next year with haste.And of course say farewell to highschool.

Don't know why, somehow I've learn yet another few things in life. well although recently. " Silence is Golden" , "defeat is Victory". haha im sure evryone knows the first one so i shan't be touching on it but the latter. " Defeat is victory" Well in some situation, admitting defeat is actually the way to win. Like for example, in arguments going with the flow and not arguing may prove flawless in the long run. After all, they say, a picture is worth a thousand words. LET THE FUTURE AND THE RESULTS DO THE TALKING!. I realized that somehow being too competitive makes you proud, and its not really a good thing.The higher you climb the harder you fall. SO will shall see where the path of our choices leads us shall we? TO sucess or failue i dare not say. Still be weary of unexpected things . Things that can never be seen or calculated.

Right, I shall pen off here.(pen off? WTH! More like fingers off... haha) Fear not for this is not the only post i will be posting. There will be more regarding bout my new upcoming project "Creator", will explain more on the next post. FYI i have canceled the original project "Forbidden Crisis" Like i Said will explain more on the next post. Adios n good night!