February 14th; a day celebrated and loved by all. A day to share love among friends. But somehow today seem like a day of bottled up feelings, feelings that were kept bottled up since way back. Speaking of which its been 2 days since Lam went to aust. Really weird not seeing him around in school; seeing him disturbing gals during recess. Ahh, been two days yet still theres no news.
Whenever i walk past his class, i was so hoping to hear his voice; his laughter and all. Its just so weird to have that feeling. To have someone leave. Though i don't really know him well; still his a good friend, a very good one indeed. Saying goodbye really is the hardest word. I would never forget that day, the day of many partings; February 12th. Dramatic it was in the airport. Went round the airport doing crazy stuff; cam whoring here and there. After we said our final goodbyes. exchanged hugs and there he went, down the escalator and we were chasing him from above. Running and running as he walked into the custom. Was actually holding my tears then, really wanted to cry but i can't afford to let him see my tears. It wasn't because its embarrassing, but because if he were to see, then saying goodbye would be even harder for him and maybe for us. Well. Sarah cried apparently, cant blame her though, as everyone was already on the verge of crying too.
After that day; it was back to school all over again. Things seemed normal at least. Except of course; Lam. Its amazing and sometimes saddening as to how things progresses in life. Things tend to change so sudden and dramatically. Sometimes its sickening.
Today in class, i felt really annoyed, pissed and angry. Mainly at myself or at someone. I can't believe i've been so stupid. There are times when you tired so hard and give so much to a person but in return they don't even at least PRETEND that they appreciate. They made it as if its what you should be doing. Sometimes you just try so hard to be a friend, in the end your just a trend. Something of no importance; that will change and disappear through time. Its just so DISGUSTING and IRRITATING to be in such situations. You just feel like destroying everything; "COME LETS BLOW HIM UP!" such seductive lines floating gently in my mind.
Why lah, do people have BIG EGO-es <------ ITs just so sickening. Typical teenagers; trying so hard to be cool. They think they ARE cool; they think they ARE everything. So FULL of themselves SO naive. Why, can't i just find a life time bud? DAMN!
Happy valentines everyone! Well today really is a valentine full of bottled up feelings. Will update soon with pictures of our airport expedition!
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