What's it like?

Im confused. Like water mixed with coke. The feelings gassy yet diluted. You can feel the bubbles burning your tongue yet it feels cool and wet at the same time. I've never done this kinda thing before, but is it right? Maybe things should have stayed unstated in the first place. I can't possibly describe this feeling, words failed me for the first time in my life yesterday. There is this overwhelming selfishness but somehow i know Im sober enough to know that. What is right? I know the answer but Im refusing to admit....And i really wonder what's it like if i really....nah nevermind....

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I seriously don't know