Can't Move....

The hours went away, drawing closer to the day; the day in which we call, the beginning of an end. Yet, my body is not functioning the way it should. Whats the cause of this sudden lack of motivation and mobility? Feeling my muscles dying as i lay on my bed, the skies above me spun around and i felt the weight of the world. Maybe, im just sad or pissed at whats been happening to me lately. Can i win? This war? It seems meaningless yet meaningful at the same time. Whats my reason to fight? What?!!